No regrets
I'm really getting into my relationship with my mother. It is so very cool. I talked to her for two hours on the telephone last night. I could have talked longer, but it was getting close to midnight and we both needed some rest.
I've been wanting to tell her what a spectacular mother I think she was (when I was growing up) and is today. It's hard to put that kind of thing into words. It went something like this:
Legs: Mom, you were and still are a great mom!
Mom: Yeah, sure!
Legs: No mom....you REALLY were!
Mom: Yeah, right!
Legs: Mom, I'm not kidding! You were really great. You were always there for us. You made me feel good. I remember you were always reading to us. Even when we were old enough to read for ourselves. I love the sound of your voice. It stills calms me. I think it's why I prefer to listen to 'books on tape' or listen to the newspaper being read on the radio. I love public radio and I think it's because you read to us all the time. You read everything to us. It was great! I knew you loved us, because you spent so much time with us.
Mom: Well, I'm glad it wasn't all bad.
Legs: It was no where near bad! I've learned so much from you. You have always been the most fascinating women I've ever known.
Mom: That's sweet! It was a pleasure being a mom.
Legs: I worry sometimes that you will look back on all those years and think that they were wasted. You worked so hard. Cooking, cleaning, sewing our clothes, putting up with us....
Mom: Mothers don't look back and see it like that. They love their children and enjoy doing things for them.
Legs: Well, I'm glad to hear that! I was sorta worried. Not having kids myself - It's hard to see it that way.
Mom: That's probably true. Children change you. They make you unselfish. I love every minute of being a mom.
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Well, I'm definitely glad I told her how I feel. I have more things to tell her. I don't want to have any regrets regarding my mother. I want all problems ironed out. I want us to be very good friends. Above all I want her to know that I love her dearly. If something should happen to one of us, everything important will already have been said.
3-16-03@4:17 p.m.