So this is life
I am always surprised by how bad I feel. It's hard to believe that a person can feel so bad and live. It's not fair, but then nothing is fair. I try so hard to be happy, but nothing works. I cannot fathom why others want to be around me. I don't want to be around me. My boss was so cruel to me last week. She issued me out of a room full of people like I was a child that she was disappointed with. I still feel sick to my stomach when I think about it. I think I've had enough of her. I only work part time - helping her out - I thought. She treats me like I'm her slave and pays me a pittance. I only stay because I have no self-esteem. I'm smarter and better educated than her. If I didn't want to die so bad......
2006-03-19@9:31 p.m.